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awesome.


isn't it like only 48 more days til xmas. who's excited?

No particular reason for this post.

I'm feeling sick cause i ate WAY too much bread for dinner.

Feeling guilty cause i didn't go to the gym

Tired because no matter how late i go to bed i will wake up at 6am

 

 

And a little lonely.

 

I miss Jack, and you guys. Honestly, this is one of the only places I get to be my creepy, obsessive, fangirl self. I get blank stares when I mention Christian Bale at work. CHRISTIAN BALE, ladies. Plus, I like the feeling of belonging. It's quite nice.

 

 

And how are you all today?

*new obsession alert*

as all of you well know, i jump from obsession to obsession on a regualr basis. one week its zac efron, the next chris pine. it's something people have coem to expect. and since i have the life of an 80 year old woman, with 3 cats and arthritis of the feet, my obsessions get every last bit of emotion from me. i pretty much invest myself in every one of them. like right now, its glee. that's pretty much all i'll talk, think, dream about. so of course, on saturday when we went into the video store to get something for jacks bday celebration, i was still thinking, talking and well daydreaming about glee. but then jack and i saw true blood. i had never had any interest in it before - lindsay lohan is a fan. nuff said. but we got it. at least if we watched it and it sucked, we could have another thing to make fun of. cause thats what jack and i do. we are superior to everything. :-)

anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy we put it on.











now i cant speak for jack. i'm guessing the noises coming from her side of the couch meant she approved. but PWOAR. that show. it's like buffy, but with sex. SEX! i love sex! in my opinion thats what makes a show sparkle. tee hee.. sparkle. like edward cullen.

and just this morning i found out that the guy who plays bill compton, stephen moyer, is british. yep. i peed a little.


YAY! i love new obsessions. everything is all fresh and exciting, and i can still watch it without covering my eyes. *tear* ahh supernatural.


OMFG!





that is all.




no wait, here:

more glee goodness here for you. what would you do without me?



more here...

www.gleeforum.com/New-Previews-t1953.html

oh ladies. ladies, ladies, ladies. i have been so wrong. this whole time i was lusting after finn - big, strong, gigantic hands, absolutely boy next door adorable finn, but who i should have been looking at is puck. LADIES. where did he come from? and why is he serenading rachel?

follow the link...
www.gleeforum.com/Vid-of-Puck-singing-Sweet-Caroline-To-Rachel-t1848.html


gah! he makes me want to set myself on fire.. but in a totally different way.






yeah that made sense in my head.

ladies,
feast your eyes. blincolin this is the thing i was talking about. the last video made me run for the bathroom. i LOVE cory monteith's dancing. that man is insane. and kurts face. MUSICAL EXPLOSION!!!!


words escape me.

www.tvovermind.com/spoiler-guy/sneak-peek-glee-1-06-vitamin-d/10673

okay - this is the one exception. this will not be about glee. this is my little venting/therapy session that wont actually cost me hundreds of dollars.
currently i'm struggling with a decision i made a few months ago. i dont actually know why i'm thinking about it now. when i made the decision i was 100% sure that it was the right one. and i really didn't feel anything when i thought about it. but lately i've been thinking about it even more. i think i still know that i made the right decision but it's like i'm now finally having a reaction to it. i keep crying. last night i watched revolutionary road - not a good idea. LOVED THE MOVIE, but the ending... fuck, not the best idea for me to be watching that. i thinks its also that i'm feeling a bit lonely. my best friend lives an hour away from me, and whilst thats not really far, i barely ever get to see her and it kills me. i dont really have anyone where i live who i can relate to like i can relate to her.
i just... i'm really confused. should i go back on medication? i was doing so well. being happy is something that doesn't actually come easy to me, but i was maintaining my emotions pretty good i thought. but now it's seems like im slipping back into old habits. the crying, the moodniness, the anxiety. is there anyway to just not feel anything except complete euphoria?


apologising again for making no sense and being way melodramatic. its one of the symptons. :-)

all my posts are going to about glee - so i'm apologising in advance. that show has literally taken over MY LIFE!!!!

jack has already posted about our love of glee. i'm so obsessed!! and the guy who plays finn (sp?) is SALTY GOODNESS!! where has that mna been all my life?

oh and he's coming to australia. to sydney. this week. where i will be. this week. stalking time? i think so. for your viewing pleasure:

joans23 i'd like to wish you a happy birthday. my present to you is of course jensen ackles shirtless, however it is not nearly as awesome as the present you got me. you deserve so much more, but alas my skills on photoshop leave much to be desired. you need to tell me EVERYTHING about your day. :) i hope it was swell. this is for you too.



again, photoshop and i are having some relationship problems. but i hope its okay.

LUFF LUFF LUFF! and a roast lamb.

happy birthday!
 

about two weeks ago now I saw harry potter 6. I don't usually enjoy the harry potter films (harry potter 3 being the only exception, and that was really because of alfonso cuaron) i kind of watch them out of habit. and two weeks ago, i went to the cinema to greet the new movie with jack and jess. it was good, kind of jumpy and definitely darker. emma watson has actually improved which was probably the biggest surprise. she's almost c-grade level now. i'm so proud. but i guess the reason i keep going back, you know, feeding my habit, is because of daniel radcliffe. since i was 9, it has been because of daniel radcliffe. never have i seen such an enchanting person. i don't think i find him attractive, physically anyway. he has a beautiful personality, that i know. that i'm attracted too. and though i haven't met him, although most of my wishes have been too, i just know that we'd be brilliant friends.

so wow, that last part was creepy. true, but fuck me, creepy. why am i talking about daniel radcliffe? well it was his birthday on thursday. the 23rd of july. and it is now 10 years that mr radcliffe and i have been involved, which makes him the longest relationship i've ever had. and i was thinking the other day about it, the whole creepy relationship thing. now i can count numerous obsessions that have been so passionate and crazy (joaquin phoenix, zac efron, *shudder* jared leto) that they leave my obsession with daniel biting the dust. hard. but after i'm over whatever thing i'm into that week, or sometimes 24hrs, i always come crawling sheepishly back to dan. (yeah, i call him dan. 10 YEARS MOFO!) he's like a safety blanket. i remember when i'd have high school crushes - they always seemed to end with me embarrassing myself (one time i hyperventilated so much i cried) and the crush forever looking at me like i'd just wet my pants. and i'd come home after school and tell my mum all about it, after which she would start cursing anyone of the male persuasion until she turned blue. or red. or whatever. but i'd always say something like, "at least i have daniel radcliffe"
after awhile my mother would be the one to say it.
at least you have daniel radcliffe.

so this is for mr radcliffe, who like my teddy bear, never hurt me or looked at me like i had urine running down my leg. who never let me down. thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for being the best celebrity crush a girl could have.




bring it on jack. do your worst.

i totally did not know alex o'loughlin had a new show. and it's a medical drama! and it has kate moennig in it! god i hope australia gets it. and we probably will, in like 3 years when it's already been cancelled. oh the perks of living down under.


KATE MOENNIG!

yup yup. God threw a bloody chest infection at me. i don't know, maybe he was bored. so now i'm practically bed-ridden. well not really. i should be in bed, but i swear i've slept more in the last few days than i have in my entire life. and all i'm eating is oranges. so those two together can really give you the shits. *smirk*


exciting news: this weekend a few friends and i are driving down to the gold coast so we can hopefully catch a glimpse of ben barnes. technically it hasn't been confirmed whether he is on set, but my fingers and toes are crossed. i just want to touch his hair. that's all. i'm a simple girl.

big shout out to blincolin who is awesome. and i hope that we are still going to be best friends in the years to come. cause i feel like we're growing apart and i hate that.

another big shout out to joans23 who gave me a wonderful zac efron picspam. cannot WAIT till Me and Orson Welles.


i will post about this weekend if i can. if my interent doesnt fail.

it's been too long since i posted last. for this i apologise. which is a thing i've been doing a lot lately, whether i have actually done something wrong or not. yesterday i made a joke, innocent enough. today apperently every man, woman and horse is angry at me. which made me angry cause the thing i said was taken out of context and kind of changed. so now there is this little highschool fight thing happening, of which i'm trying to stay out of. i said i was sorry, that i never meant any offence, etc. but of course some people just like to start fights.


great.



whats up with you guys?

i'm pretty sure jack has already posted about this.. but i feel the need to comment myself.

last night i looked into the face of god. and it was AWESOME. no awesome doesn't even describe it. it was exquisite. it was mesmerising. i peed a little.



GOD. my friends, GOD was walking the filthy streets of the valley last night. with his leather jacket, his perfectly curled hair.. he's like something out of my dreams. it's like, i have imaginings of how my meeting with caleb followill will go (it will happen. it will happen.) and i imagine how he will look and there kind of a light shining from behind him, because  caleb followill is my own personal jesus - and that is exactly how i felt when i saw that man. like, pwoar. i think i even dribbled a little.








i dont even care about dying an old maid anymore. i'll have that image to take me to bed every night.










*dies*

currently obsessing over star trek. and spock. the the eternal love/ultimate gayness of spock and kirk. jack has obviously corrupted me because i now see gay everywhere. ANYWAY! i'm loving myself sick with youtube and chris pine/ zachary quinto interviews and tonight i hit soem sort of goldmine. this ladies and gentlemen, quite literally made me jizz in my pants (especially chris and his brazilian!)

just a shout out to euterpeslullaby for the new mood theme. yes it's star trek. and yes, my vulcan ears are on order. and i have started shaving my eyebrows off and am currently reshaping them. i am now a trekkie.

yesterday i saw star trek. i wont go into it too much. it may have been the greatest thing i've ever seen. but whatever. I told jack that i now have an intense love for spock and anything vulcan related. there was some silence at her end but then i got a message back that goes something like this:

"I think you have a pathological preference for those that keep emotions on the inside."


Which is so totally true. Dean, Angel, my mum doesn't do affection, jack hugged me the other day but she also isn't big on affection. And now Spock with all his pent up emotions.

So does anyone have any spock fic? spock/kirk? i don't really care. As long as Spock is releasing some of his *ahem* emotions, I'm good.


:D live long and prosper.


hehehehehehehe

yep, i'm watching supernatural again. i don't care if it's crap. i love dean. I LOVE DEAN!




or maybe i'm just extremely sex deprived.